Yesterday I drove to Sand Hollow State Park in Utah (about 2.5 hours from Las Vegas) to camp and ride trails for the weekend with my Jeep club. I had been looking forward to this trip for weeks.
Full Moons are a time of celebrating completion of goals, closing chapters in our lives, releasing the past, and moving forward. Blue Moon's are a second full moon in the same month. They happen about once a calendar year. This ritual will help you capture the healing powers of the blue moon.
Sobriety isn’t easy. It took me 15 months - from the moment I realized I was an alcoholic and had lost control of myself - to get sober. I went to 12 step meetings like you’re supposed to. I would get 4-6 weeks of sobriety under my belt, then I would go off the deep end on a weekend bender. I went back to 12 step meetings and spent over a year on a hamster wheel that felt like I would never be able to get off. I didn’t get it at the meetings. I don’t relate to Higher Power well. I couldn’t figure out how to get past that. I never felt like I had a God or Higher Being that had my back. I felt abandoned most of the time. By God. By my family. By my own self. Trying to put faith in something else didn’t work for me. I had to figure out how to put that faith in myself.
A few years ago I read The Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubin. And as I was finishing it, it inspired me to make my own list.
If you haven't read her book yet, it is basically a year in her life in which every month she makes a list of goals for herself to follow - and then tries to continue each month's goals throughout her year. The goals are to help her be happier. She doesn't admit to being depressed, as much as she claims she could use a little more happiness in her life. And I agree - who wouldn't want more happiness!
It is so easy for me to second guess myself. I have spent so much of my life hiding from myself that sometimes I surprise myself with what I love and what I know. I can get lost in the Negative Nancy thoughts and psych myself out of doing things. And I know I am not the only one.
The beautiful thing about life,
is that it ebbs and flows like the ocean tides.
If you're willing to move in her waves
and let her take you where she so desires...
you will find yourself
surrounded by new experiences.
Many people make New Year's Resolutions. I'm one of them. But this year... something different. Something to allow me to make small steps in the right direction. Over time. In chewable bites. This year I am starting TODAY - on the New Moon - and creating one RITUAL to grow with for the moon cycle...